As I look down and see my husband’s white sock covered with spilled coffee grounds…and as I look up and see him holding the coffee filter somewhat askew while he attempts to maintain a conversation with me…and as I witness more wet grounds splattered on the kitchen floor and up the wall by the garbage bin, I say the only thing that I can think to say.

‘Step away from the kitchen, sir…step AWAY from my kitchen…’

The look on the head secretary’s face when I told her I was going to hop the counter instead of being buzzed in to the main office…marvelous!

I know I would never do it, she knew I would never do it; nor can I do actually physically do it.

But for a split second…I ruled the world.

This afternoon…the little one coughed, raised his hand and when called on said simply, ‘Miss, I have a hair ball’.

My response…’I can’t take care of that right now’…back to work.

Can’t make this stuff up.

I ended a class today in a good space…sparring back and forth with a highly energized, slightly obstreperous third grader who exudes continual positive energy when I am perhaps a touch more…um…quiet and not prone to jumping.

I asked him before we left the classroom, ‘Do I need to hold your hand in the hallway?’ He responded with great glee, ‘I would LOVE to have you hold my hand in the hallway!’

Jumping! Twisting around! So we held hands as we walked back while the rest of the class draggled behind us…

So…there’s that…

The line between chemical and spiritual is a finely threaded one indeed…

In time, hard cold reality wins over rhetoric. If it is broken, it is broken…whether it be forced federal health care or forced educational policy curriculum.

Incompetence at multiple levels, teachers streaming out of the field at record rates…the trick is waiting for it all to implode…

We are working in the middle of a Salvador Dali painting…everything and everyone is slowing melting down…dripping over the edges like exhausted clocks…

Sometimes, naming something helps in the effort to change things. Sometimes.

I exercise (not enough). I walk a thoughtful tightrope between chips and snacks, organic chicken, processed sweet cakes in fun, wrinkly crisp wrappers, salads…and when all else fails…I pop a few vitamins.

Everything goes better with strong, rich coffee laced with heavy cream. Everything.

It occurred to me that stubborn belly fat (not officially recognized) needs a name because, well… ideally it needs to change.

I am now the proud owner of my own ‘Pacific Rim’.

Carrying on…

I awoke and found the land changed; the view morphed into something new. The house being built next to ours seems to have sprung up overnight and now we are fully surrounded.

The land in great reluctance has surrendered another acre and I assume the heavy soil questions the ‘gifting’ of itself; as night shadows descend and the rains begin to fall and the turned over dirt is cold.

I rose and during the day’s journey I dusted the buffet belonging to my Grandmother; a piece of furniture more than one hundred years old and I wondered what this lovely piece of hewn wood has witnessed.

Wood and land, dust and soil and stone; watching humanity move and build and tear down and stomp around with passions and proclamations. The elements wait without comment for they were there on the very tip of God’s hand during creation and they will cover us as God closes eyes and they observe our lives and decisions…and they wonder as we dust and dig around and carry on with abandon…

On this brilliant Sunday morning as you sit quietly in a chair by the window, reading a study on Biblical texts and I sit more quietly in my reading room scanning a book about miracles, the gentle chimes blow against the wind on the porch and sing out the glories of a restful Sabbath day.

We have temporarily neglected the gathering of the faithful.

I stretch suddenly and rise to take a brief moment to scrub up a large pot left sitting alone in the kitchen sink. The pot is heavy and unwieldy and I struggle to turn it over and over under the gushing water, scraping off the crusty sauce from the delicious stew you cooked last evening. You look up briefly as the clanging of stainless steel against steel disturbs your concentration. We smile with no words and the water continues to flow as I scrub.

Such is this passage called life; when Biblical texts and miracles are necessarily interrupted by a dirty pot which wants cleaning. And therein blooms unabated, the steady frustration of this experience on Earth; that a mere steel pot would demand the setting aside of such high and lofty things such as theological texts and the promises of miracles.

For this detritus; the mundane objects of dirt and elbow grease and the daily requirement of food, serve as a goad, a necessary theology of the kitchen; a reminder that we are not yet home…

I love overhearing phrases in the school hallway such as, ‘If your voice is above ‘Ninja’…you’re going to the island and it won’t be a choice!’

I have no earthly idea what’s happening but I’d like to join…either side…’Ninja’ or the island…